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Ryan
15 October 2006 @ 04:44 pm

I thought wrong.

I missed a party yesterday, most retarded thing ever. I knew my mom would say no, right away, but I asked anyways. Stupid me. I got myself into a big and her lecturing me about how I shouldn't have even had the "chick" to ask. What . So... I didn't go.  I thought everyone would be like, totally drunk but I guess they weren't. Oh well, this is the most retarded thing. My mom thinks going out once a month is unreasonable, but there really isn't anything I can do about that. And church. Church, church is a joke these days. It's practically turned into school. Stupid fat lady. Anyways, I'm sort of ed I missed it, but I won't be anymore come October twenty eighth.

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I got facebook. It's actually easier to use than I thought it would be, although everyone can see what you're doing. And Samik quit LJ.

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Anny won't tell me who Ag is, although I'm almost sure I know at least something. Don't lie to me baby.

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I think we're going to go snowboarding soon, I still have to get everyone to go.

There's probably more to write here but I can't think of it right now. Will post again / edit.

ryan

 
 
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Ryan
10 October 2006 @ 10:05 pm

Yeahah! I'm finally fourteen. Honestly, I don't feel any different. At all. 

There was a surprise party sort of thing that my mom tried to organize but... no she failed. I found out thanks to Jack Shi falling off his chair and getting stuck upside down, haha. I didn't know what we were doing for my surprise party until I found out we were in downtown Toronto (I was blindfolded the whole time) So yeah. We went and saw a hockey game in my mom's boss' box. Leafs vs. Canadiens. It was pretty cool. If my mom had to actually pay for the night we would be poor, fast. It was kind of embarrasing, they had some of my kiddie pictures on the wall and now they're on the MIII conference. Anyways, the game wasn't that great. The leafs lost in the shootout 3-2. Matts Sundin's face looks really retarded. Yeah, and the people invited were random too (thanks mom). There was Daphne, Anny, David, Jack, Samik, Hannah, Bianca Marie, Kevin and Surinder, not to mention Kevin's parents AND Jack's parents. Was sort of unlucky though, we had extra tickets cus Heba and Kelly didn't show up, but s'ok. Got lots of clothing and stuffs, some candy and ninety bucks in cash, pretty sweet. Thanks to all you who showed up!!!

Oh yeah, and that morning, there was a church volleyball tourney, that was pretty sick. We had Ken, Jon, Athena, Mel and Hyland (because Joanne sprained her ankle). In fact - hehe - our team was better than it would have been, but we'll keep that to ourselves. There were some other teams there, including a university team from York (and they were using a 17-U net)!!! Well it was pretty nice, we won our first two matches but we finally got beaten by another team in our quarter-final match. Great fun.

On Sunday, a bunch of the church guys came over to chill for a bit, pretty fun and all, except Ken, Jon, Hyland and Chris didn't show up till ten or so, pretty lame. So we were going to go skate but the lineup was wayyyyy to long (haha, mostly comprised of black teenagers). Sooo... we ended up going to the bowling alley, but that was closed to, so we ended up going to McDonalds to grab a bite on the way home. I really like their one thirty nine value picks!!!

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My sister came back for the weekend, brought me and my mom some stuff from Queen's (nice sweater, thanks!). She also came to the thanksgiving dinner, and was off on Monday. Haha, you never did cook that salmon stuff you said you would. 

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Gosh, I am so pumped for the snowboarding season. Hey Sarah!! You snowboard, right??? Tell me you snowboard.

ryan

 
 
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Ryan
25 September 2006 @ 09:43 pm

Got back from a three day trip to Camp Ahmek in Algonquin Park three days ago... I will now attempt to recount all that happened during my stay there.

We arrived at Camp Ahmek - Wapomeo on Friday. The bus ride up was... interesting. Our bus was comprised of the cabins Chippawa, Cozy Rosy, Weevo Peeata A and B and some other random cabins. I would later learn that the happening that was Surinder switching out of our cabin would turn out to be a very good thing. Way up there, it was very, very cold. Our cabins were colder. Our cabin was named Chippawa. It was actually half of a wooden shack-like building. The other half of our building was another cabin that was comprised of Ali D, Thomas Jayson and some other n00bs. Our cabin, along with the rest of them (with the exception of Jason's that had an electric light) had not electricity, no heating and no insulation. What they did have was four wooden walls with lots of holes in them, lots of graffitie and metal bed frames with a couple of mattresses thrown on top. The camp itself was pretty good in terms of its layout. See, Ahmek is actually the boys section of a much larger camp, whereas Wapameo, on the other side of the lake is the girls section. The boys section was made up of two groups of cabins seperated by a body of water called Wigwam Bay. This body of water could only be crossed by bridge or by a path near the back of the camp. They used this bay to conveniently seperate the boys and girls cabins. We had been told beforehand that this camp would be nothing like Wanakita (it sure felt just as cold) and that cabin hopping would not be tolerated and punished severely. Even with these warnings the same people were determined to cabinhop and they did (although they got caught... but even then, they hardly got into any trouble). I also cabinhopped but I was discrete about it and DID NOT get caught ^^. There was nothing on the girls side except the cabins whereas the guys side had everything... the dining hall, washrooms both docks and the pool. After settling into our cabins (mine was Samik, Matthew Yibo and I) everyone was called to the huge dining hall for rules and announcements. The dining hall was ahuge building with blazing firest at each end. This was where we would have the rest of our meals (and leadership crap). The food at Ahmek was disgusting. After that we had our first rotation. This is where camp starts. 

For first rotation I had signed up for swimming, but I quickly changed my mind when I heard Ravi yelling "Shrinkage, WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Yeah... so instead I headed into the dining hall with Leo, Matthew, Kelly, Mark, Nick, Ellen, Nathalie and some other people. Some guitar by the fire and we were still freezing cold. The whole time Leo was flashing me the dirtiest looks ever, and I think I know why, but I'm not going to assume. Another classic case of Ryan trying to keep out of the way of his buddies, geez. My next rotation was High Ropes but I switched to Tennis instead, which turned out to be really fun. It was my first time playing but I'm pretty good, if I do say so myself. I lost against Jack Zhou though; he's much better I think. My third rotation was canoeing which turned out to be really fun... I was with Leo, Anny, Connie, David, Daemon, Eva, Amina and Daphne (tell me if I missed anyone). Daphne was wearing a lifejacket that said "DICK" on the back in big bold letters, and the paddling worked up an appetite in Eva. All really fun, although I got soaked.

During the three days we had lots of leadership workshops which included group games, films, and sessions. During the "Ahmek Leadership Challenge", we ran out of money and Yibo and I earned SEVENTY DOLLARS $$ from card tricks; most of those n00bs were getting like, fives and tens but we got SEVENTY DOLLARS $$. We also had this thing where we had to identify your leadership strength. At first I was tempted to choose zest, but on second thought I switched to social intelligence. After that I wanted to switch to judgement but I didn't. I dunno, most of the leadership stuff was things we already knew. And as I always say, the world can be explained by math... there is a formula for everything! They did this "magical levitation" thing but in reality it was just a simple physics equation with some "focus and you can do it" mumbo jumbo mixed in... xlbs/4 people = easy lifting =)

The bus ride back was really fun too.

At camp I had lots of fun, I learned little and thought many thoughts. I saw the true colors of some people, I made friends, got closer with friends I already had. But all that was because it was a camp. I dunno... I cna feel it going back to normal again. Geez I hate this.

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My parents are being really faggy and so they want me to sleep at ten o clock. TEN! How retarded is that?

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I got facebook, but its really hard to use. It really is just one big bandwagon. Or as someone else said, one big donkey cart. 

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Amina's having a breakdown and so... yeah. Got some news that sort of surprised me, although  I had already suspected half of them. Still, it means nothing to me.
I have rekindled my interest for sharp, shiny things.
ryan

Dance coming up. One thing I will be looking forward too. Although... I don't know why.

 
 
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Ryan
14 September 2006 @ 08:44 pm
Hello.

I just got news that I did not make the 2006-2007 Boys Sr. Volleyball team. To be totally honest, I tried my best at the tryouts. And to be totally honest again, I wasn't really expecting to make it anyways. I was still sorta dissapointed, but at the same time, I wasn't too surprised either. I mean, I'm just a 5'5 azn kid who can hardly reach the top of the net and can't set for beans. I mean, Lester was there hammering the balls right into the ground and I, hardly getting them over (haha, At least I was better than Simu who was consistently hitting balls into the net.). That's alright though, just a small blemish in my otherwise OK day. Congratulations to Kevin who did make the team, the only MIII who did, not surprisingly.

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Jeez, school is so gay, I have so much homework. I am constantly deprived of MSN because of homework and that makes me edgy. The smallest things really me off, like the fact that Mr.Chalmers assigned and incredibly gay and overly-detailed mapping assignment to our class, and to everyone else as well. So gay, I swear to god. I heard that the UTSPA is reviewing the way UTS marks us. This could mean one of three things: 1), Everyone gets better marks. 2), We get less/easier work. Or 3), I leave UTS. Woo-hoo. That wouldn't be that bad. I mean, it would be bad but at least I wouldn't be so stressed all the time and having to wake up at six thirty in the morning, geez!

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And then her again. It's almost a parallel but she won't be reading this anyways. She, it, always seems just out of my grasp; I just need to stretch a little more, but I don't really want to sometimes. It plays with you, yes, no, yes, no, yes, NO! Geez, what to do. Haha, I used to think it would work out perfectly, simply fall into place, but no, reality just had to come along and smack me in the face. I'm done ranting, I hate this computer and I wish I had my own.

ryan
 
 
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Ryan

David has signed up for LiveJournal! Yay! And I changed my layout, again. For like, the fifth time. 

Second week of school starts tomorrow. It's pretty average, now that I think about it. Just, lot's of work, and familiar faces. Hmm. It's going to be one long year. There were some things I really thought I wanted to accomplish, lots of things I wanted to do during the summer. Not much of that stuff happened, but now that I think about it, it's not so bad that it hasn't. I never thought of it that way. I think that's only because I considered myself part of only one, and not the other. That's ok, just gotta step back some times, look at it from third person. Sometimes it really messes with the way you think, you think you gotta prove yourself, show that you're not just another one of crowd. But that's not entirely true. It's really dependant on how you want people to look at you, and right now, I don't really mind either. But then of course, you'll only be seen as the Jack.

Erika, oh Erika, why do you hate me so? Why do you think I'm a sexual predator because just because I'm not homophobic? Not everything in my blogs is true, either, in case you didn't know. And why did they say all that this morning? Is it because they've never seen any of that before? I mean, even for me, and less for you, that's pretty sad. Probably only because it's church.

And do you guys like this color scheme better than my original?

ryan

 
 
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Current Music: Where'd You Go - Fort Minor ft. Holly Brook & Jonah Matranga
 
 
 
Ryan

Right now I am in the middle of changing my msn address. On of the most stressful things to be done in today's fast-changing society, let me tell you. Although, you probably know what it is to experience it.

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On Thursday the grade went off to the quaint town of Stratford way out West (haha, not that far West) to see the play, Henry IV (Part I). We arrived and hour and a half early and were given leave to check out the place and grab some lunch. I tagged along with some others and we walked. And arrived at an ice-cream parlour, which was my lunch for the day. The play was pretty good, except I slept through a quarter of it, and was distracted with the Frenchies to my left for another quarter (yeah). The fighting scenes were really bad though. The best part of the day was the bus ride back. Almost two and a half hours of sitting in the coach (yeah, they changed it from yellow buses to coaches after all). We spent the whole ride back tearing into Kelly (not literally, except for Kevin =P). Hah, I think she has finally accepted the fact that she is a whore that gives head for free, yes she knows it and she likes it. Especially with Leo and his fobby-licious hair. And then Matthias (I think that's how it's spelled), yeah, he learned lots on the way back, too *cough*. We arrived back at school an hour later than expected, at seven thirty in the evening. Matthew, Samik and I were driven to Matt's house where I was picked up later. Fun.

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The next day I had my first day two. It was pretty good, I got Chuvalo again, (hah, that's like the third straight year with him), and Stoyka (haha, stupid chair). After school Matthew, Samik and I picked up our routine slushee from 7/11, yeah it tasted soo good. 

Then I headed home, got changed and headed off again, to fellowship. Gee. Grade nine initiation. Uh-huh, the dreaded day had finally come. It actually wasn't as bad as I feared it was. First activity wasn't so bad, "buttwriting". Haha, sooooo funny. They thought I was breakdancing. I got make-up-ed afterwards though, probably the worst part of the night. Next activity. Lemon eating. This was a piece of cake because 1), I routinely eat lemons whenever they are provided and 2), they lemons weren't sour, not even in the least. The slowest three people got ketchup-ed, really badly. Haha Erika (oh come on, it wasn't that bad). Last event of the night, walking through a maze blindfolded. I easily overtook Tiff and pwned all! Wewt!

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And then this morning, I had math tutoring xP and chinese school for the first time since last year. It sounds like shit, and it is, but it's not so bad because my teacher is pretty cool. Got homework though, and some from UTS as well T_T.

In other news, I changed my LJ layout twice, and my avatar once. If like or dislike either, please tell me.

ryan

Oh and uh, if someone by the address of blackhoarse@hotmail.com adds you, it's just me. And don't bother adding me, I'll add you =).

 
 
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Current Music: You're Gone - Something Corporate
 
 
Ryan
06 September 2006 @ 09:50 pm
It's been a while since I've blogged. 

Alot of things have changed, too. 

On Sunday, my sister, my dearest sister, left for university. Yeah, after eighteen years of living at home, she's finally gone. Hah, it sounds like I'd be bawling, but no. I mean, she's only two hours away at Queen's U, and we got free long distance =D. And she's coming back to visit in like, two weeks.

When we arrived, my sister immediately registered with the administration and found her dorm room. It happens to be at the end of a long corridor, which didn't help with unpacking. It turns out she had several cardboard boxes, several large garbage bags, and one massive "mini" fridge ¬_¬. It took us more than a full hour to unpack all of the stuff she needed for the year. This also included some crazy posters and more then a few stuffed "animals" (does a sponge count as an animal?). She also had a laptop (lucky little...). Well, it seems like my parents had invested alot in Season... She had better become a successful i-dunno-what and make lot's of money, or else =P. Later we visited Ludmilla's dorm in the Waldron Tower, on the other side of campus. Her room was smaller by a bit, but it had a sink to make up for it. After that, we simply left. There were no tears shed or sappy speeches made. Hmm... I got her room now, which is good. It's much larger and well lit, as well as having a phone T_T. It still feels weird, it being so empty and all. I feel bad that I haven't even missed her. But these days, it's not so bad, her being only a couple clicks away. I say good luck to her and I hope she has fun.

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Tuesday was the first day of school, although it wasn't a full day. I had slept over at Kevin's the previous night to save my mother the trouble of driving me to the subway station. We were about a half-hour late for being at Second Cup, but that's ok. I was a huge dumbass and spent four ninety-six on a "regular" size frozen hot chocolate. Later, in school, I got my new locker spot for the year. We also had assembly with the weirdo new principal which I don't much like. I thought high school would be a big woo-hoo but it's not, mostly because I'm still at the same school T_T... 

And then today was my first full day of high school. Got some new and old teachers, Royer, Williamson, Levere, Cescon, Guillemot, and some others I'll meet on Friday. Not so eventful, really. Oh and uh, I've started taking the earlier train just because the rest of the crew is as well. I don't care much for travelling with the NunMaker.

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In other news, I witnessed Samik getting pwned by his mom outside No-Frills, heh. It was so funny... even my mom doesn't yell that loud (sorry Samik). Also, my parents have a BIG problem with my "long" hair. And uh, Samik's, uh, "longer" hair. Big Stratford trip tomorrow, I'm looking forward to it. It's also postoponing my first day two class, for better or worse. I don't even know what we're watching there. Stupid cheap yellow schoolbuses.

ryan

Oh yeah... I'm thinking of changing up my layout. Mine is kind of... boring, blah, non sequiter. Except... not really. Suggestions please.
 
 
 
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Current Music: Kidding Ourselves - Stabilo
 
 
Ryan
29 August 2006 @ 10:12 pm

Woot!

My discovery that Amina has become an LJ user has made my day. If you're reading this friend me now. NOW I SAY~

ryan

 
 
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Ryan
21 August 2006 @ 09:37 pm
LOL. I just got word that my sister got rear-ended. Teehee, it makes me laugh. It also makes me mad that my parents bought my sister a nine hundred dollar, eighteen-karat gold ring for her eighteenth birthday and my parents are still whining about how I'm always wasting money. I don't even get allowance for god's sake. 

Today I started my first day of volunteering at church. I thought it would be gay and boring... but it was actually really fun. I was assigned as a "GM". I thought it would be something cool like "Guild Master, heh, but it actually turned out to be General Maintenance. Woohoo. I can't complain though... it's one of the better jobs, as they go. I was spared the agony of dealing with whiney kids all day long. I don't know how my sister deals with them (it probably has something to do with the face that she's getting paid).

Later, I was in the basement working on some props for the upcoming musical. Helaine was literally seeing red at the crappiness of the mountains and sky and the palm tree that was just too fat. She decided to fix it up. In the end, the palm tree turned out to be about one quarter the size it was previously.  I got high (actually) for the first time ever off some green spray paint. I spent five minutes hacking at the cap with a hammer, then scissors, trying to get it off. Then Joanne came along and popped it off with one finger. O_O. I also did myself some graffiti. Not bad for a first-timer, if I do say so myself. Then there was a power outage (too bad it wasn't a blackout). 

Then we had tacos for lunch. It turns out the kids, volunteers and counsellors get almost unlimited servings, which is good, except that the tacos weren't so good. There was lots of cleaning up to do afterwards, but being a volunteer has it's perks. I get lots of community service hours (even though they don't count towards the forty needed for grade nine and ten), and it really feels good to be helping my church, helping the community. Something to keep my mind of the books that are killing me. We also got bubble tea ^_^!!! It seems that Prudence went out and bought a whole bunch of jugs of original, honeydew and taro flavored milk tea... all for the counsellors and volunteers. We got popcorn, too. I'm looking forward to the rest of the week.

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Sometimes people piss me off for reasons that I can't explain, although I'm almost sure anyone else would be mad as well. I get way too absorbed in the happenings in my friends' lives. I just don't understand how someone can be in a relationship, make out with a random person they met at camp, and then say "If she asks me about it, I'll just apologize. It's no big deal." No big deal? Either I'm "conservative" or I see relationships the same way most other people (or now that I think about it, most other people like me) do. Yeah, it makes me feel uncomfortable. It further reinforces what she told me so many months ago. How did she ever rationalize that?

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Barbeque coming up. On the twenty-sixth. I hope everyone can make it. I'm looking forward to seeing everyone again, finally. 

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Duke tells me to go online but he's never on himself. He should figure it out for himself. Like Emma told me. What a dumbass I was.

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This is one of my favourite songs. It really is that good.

Blank face little girl
Your colors running down
It’s the one you love
Cry out my world, this copulated kiss
It’s the last that you deserve

I’ve done wrong
I’ve been gone
It’s the one you love
Drink down and your candles burn
Away, away

Dreaming you, is so easy, yeah
If it was up to me, then you would cry tonight
If it was up to you

Take you, take me
I can’t go with you now
Don’t you wish I’d try
Left just a trace, it's growing colder still
So kiss yourself goodbye

I’ve done wrong
I’ve been gone
It’s the one you love
One drink and your candles burn
Away, away

Dreaming you, is so easy, yeah
If it was up to me, then you would cry tonight
When it's up to you, you kiss yourself goodbye

Let go, push your daisies
A thousand maybes, a thousand left I'm done
A white glow, just for tasting
A life for wasting (it’s the one you love)
And I look into your eyes, it's the one you love

Last one then I fill you up today, today
How can you sleep
When dreaming you, is so easy, yeah
If it was up to me, then you would cry tonight
When its up to you, you kiss yourself goodbye
You would cry tonight (yeah)
So kiss yourself goodbye (yeah)
You would cry tonight (yeah)
So kiss yourself goodbye.


ryan
 
 
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Current Music: Kiss Yourself Goodbye - The All-American Rejects
 
 
Ryan
12 August 2006 @ 11:41 am
Finally, lol.

I played like today... Beach volleyball in the morning... I was like, moving in slow motion, shanking balls left and right. Oh well, I guess I was just tired.

I was in disbelief when I heard my sister was making lunch at home. I closed my mouth when I learned it was because her boyfriend was coming over, lol.

I cannot wait for school to start... I'm aching to see everyone again... and then there will be some new faces too. I'm looking forward to it.

Met some kids at the park... mostly grade sevens and eights, but that's ok. It sucks, I really wanted to meet some people at the beginning of the summer but it never happened. I think its partly because I know theres no one in my whole neighbourhood thats my age.

I have something really interesting for you to read. Will post.

ryan
 
 
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